Almost deleted the blog!

I was reminded by a dear sweet friend that I had not blogged in awhile. I told her I would write that day, but I did not. I even sit here today trying to figure what to write. I think its because last week I tried to delete this blog, but I couldn't figure out how. I sat at this computer with Tom standing over my shoulder telling me I was being ridiculous and to wait and give it time. I had no choice since I didn't know how to delete it.

I had had a terrible evening as a wife. I lost it with Tom and yelled and acted like a total fool. He was upset too and for the first time in ages, I mean ages we went to sleep mad. (Not biblical, not good) I went to work the next day still feeling the seperation between us. I just felt terrible all day long. Tom texted me the sweetest message and it sort of broke the frost so to speak.

We are perfectly fine now. I just felt like,who am I to be writing about being a good wife when I was so aweful. I am reminded now of the "Love Bank". A love bank is a way to describe how people fall in love and stay that way. When we do nice things for our husbands or they for us they make deposits into a love bank. Things that we do that hurt our spouse or neglect them they are like withdrawls. Marriages get in trouble when the withdrawls are more then deposits.

I was awful to Tom and definetly made a withdrawl that night, but thankfully because usually I am trying to be a good wife and meet his needs there was plenty in the account for us to easily forgive, forget and move on.

I wanted to delete the blog when it happened because I was feeling so hypocritical, but perhaps it is good to be more real.

I would love to hear your struggles, maybe we can all help each other be the best wives we can be.